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(Funny) Self Humility - Slip-ing =) If youve followed my blog.. this is a Funny story from one section of my past. In about 4th grade, I started to open up to people. It was a slow process, but I was getting a bit better. In 6th grade, came a big breakthrough. Self Humility. Being put down, Picked on, not having the ability to voice your opinions...etc.. all have a bad effect on you. I became very brittle, was too sensative, and lashed out angerly when people were merely joking arround with me. I didnt have a sence of humor for myself. I felt as if I couldnt be any more bad off, and so when something happened to embarress me, I merely just got more upset and or angered. I couldnt stand being any worse.. and thats how it felt when that happened. I took others comments too heavily, and my own self too seriously. So I was pretty miserable. Anyway... by 6th grade, I had started to gain a little sence of humor, but the next events were to really drive it home!  It was Halloween, and we could Dress up in Costume as anything we wanted. Over the years, Id been various things such as the hero Zorro... but this year.. I decided to kinda joke arround and dress like a Girl. My mother helped me. She Curled my hair with an Iron. It was fairly long cause it needed to be cut. Put all the makeup on, and Gave me a dress to wear, and Even a Bra that was Heavily stuffed! Ladies, I really feel for ya. That was quite a time consuming ordeal! And ugg, that Eye makup was painfull. Then she asked me if I wanted to wear a 'Slip'. She pulled it out. I had no idea what it was for, but it looked sorta like her underwear, and I would Not go that far! I told her "no way!". I arrived at school ok. As I walked I realized that the dress was very 'Staticy'. It would sometimes stick too my legs and was a bit too revealing!  So I would quickly fan it away.As I was walking, it seemed like nobody recognized me. Nobody commented, nobody even looked in my direction. I have to admit, mother did one hell of a job. I already had a bit of a girlish look at that age... and the hair, makeup, and dress really changed how I appeared. The teacher started to take attendance, and finally called my name. When I raised my hand, peoples jaws dropped. They all truely couldnt believe how different I looked as a Girl. heh. Several students later came up to me and asked me if I would be in their play. They said that one of the girls was home sick. I was reluctant, because I wasnt good with remembering things like lines, and I was never on a stage let alone talking to people in long durration! But they begged and pleaded, and I finally agreed. I started to learn the lines... Luckily, there werent too many. Still, it was a bit of a challenge with such short notice. The time came, and I was behind the Stage Curtains waiting for my cue to enter. I then walked out about half way to the center of the stage as I recited the lines to the characters. Funny enough, at least one of them forgot thier lines order, which sorta messed my lines up. Anyways... I was doing ok so far... and was remembering my lines.   As I was speaking my lines, I heard a bunch of giggles from the audience. I started to wonder why.. because we said Nothing that was funny. There was also nothing that we 'did' that was funny either. The chuckle here and there turned into some outright laughs. Now I was really baffled. What in the World were they laughing at?!! I scanned the Area with my eyes looking all arround me. Then... to my Horror!... I saw what it was they were laughing at...  Behind me, there on the Curtain, was my shadow. But unlike others shadows.. mine was different. The Lights from the stage were very bright, and were passing through my light colored, semi-translucent dress. Im not sure they could see through my dress... but the shadow was pretty damn revealing!!!  There on that curtain, was a silhouette of me, in a see thru dress, in a pair of underwear. THe very details of the underwears shape were very clear! I felt a wave of terror! Then embarrassment!.. and I DESPERATELY tried to back away twords the edge of the stage where the curtains cover was!!! All the while, when I was backing up I was speaking my lines... but the cast were looking at me funny and wondering why I was backing up. They didnt realize what was occuring! And they kinda got mad at me, and kept me from backing up further. I realized it was too late anyways.. and that there was nothing I could really do. I just had to suck it up and finish my lines. I eventually found it pretty humourous myself, and didnt care. Later I wondered if it was all a setup. If so, they were all much better actors than was on stage! heh But even so, I surely learned how to laugh at myself! It was a good lesson that I would never forget. I think it helped with my image too.. because they also saw that I handled such an event with such grace. That I wasnt the same bitter lemon anymore. And maybe even a little respect from the ladies from seeing under my dress!  lolOhh, I learned another Lession that day: A Slip is a protector so that ones dress cant be seen through, and so it wont stick in places it shouldnt!  
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Haha, you bring us a vivid play and revelation. The world a stage, you are the player. On the stage, you really get better lesson than in reality. Thanks a lot Steve for your great story. It helps evoke my adolscence memory.
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2/13/2007 12:46 am |
Thanks davinci2rinpoche & swallowtsui. swallowtsui, I like the way you related the story to life in general. You have a very Poetic mind.
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2/23/2007 9:03 pm |
LoL Good one Darkwolf
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