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Is this some sort of sign? last night i sat here writing like crazy... i couldn't bring myself to close my eyes to go to sleep because the thoughts that consumed my mind had to be documented... they were private thoughts, honest thoughts, real thoughts. and then as i was writing the last sentence my computer ate up everything i wrote. i sat there staring at the screen blankly after working for about an hour, i shrugged, and then i wasn't able to fall asleep for nearly two hours thinking that everything i had written exactly the way it was meant to be was simply gone. you can't ever write again. you can't ever try to make something as good as when it's pouring out of your mind. i was going to read it at open mic tonight. to you. i was going to be brutally honest with this special someone, you. i was going to confess a stream of thought i hadn't told anyone about, but you. is this some sort of sign? perhaps something deep and intellectual, or perhaps that next time i should use a pencil... i hope i write the same thoughts later... to you.  April |
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5/26/2006 1:24 pm |
April, Perhaps destiny was just saying that your thoughts were appreciated but best left unsaid. Sometimes we need to say everything and there is no one there to say it to, but once we have it said, we feel so much better. The only real shame is the two hours of lost sleep. Mike
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April, I had this painful experience on last last Sunday. Surrounded by rain and all the thoughts you described to my that special YOU, after pouring out w/o reservation for several pages, the computer ate it up. You were stronger, i cried bitterly like an owl. As you noted, all words were so destined in the moments we wrote, we couldnt re-write it as it was before. Pain! I told him this by email and was told it's not computer's fault, it's my own. We should use word processor to write and save, then copy to email or webpage.  Swallow p.s. Enjoy reading you.
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