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Fear and Courage 1. Fear Last night I swam in a terrace swimming pool, while out of a sudden it rained. Here a little boy was drowned dead last summer. I was swimming alone and only me there. Rain struck on my skin and i felt something haunted. So I dared not swim to the deep side though i was quite able to. It was fear seizing me. Fear is always imagined, not materially existed. How often are we seized by it and other imagined negative emotions? If you surrender like me, do you know you have push away some opportunity? 2. Courage It needs courage to help, when helping means risking, especially in a deteriorated society where there are lots of cheatings under a vulnerable cover. Last time, at a decent neighborhood in Zhuhai, boy approached me w/a pc of paper. W/ a flash of cheating boys making up bitter story then asking for money help, I immdly said, "sorry, I have no time." By so doing I didnt take any risk. Last night, a strange woman in her 40s came up to ask us, me and my gf, abt how to take bus to the 3-lamp street. She spoke w/ absurd accent. she claimed she couldnt read Chinese. But based on her age and China's social process, she should not be illiterate. Everyday on Macau radio audiences phone in to tell street cheating stories of fabricated plots - being lost and no money to go home. Suspiciously, we still concluded we shant brush aside our obligation to help. We summoned her onto the bus and entrusted her to the driver. She stood near the driver and we moved to the rear. She rattled her bag. Ooops. She even didnt have 2.50 Macau dollar. A man nearby paid for her. Well, quite close to cheating scenarios! We talked low. I said she looked so worried and innocent that she might be one of the newly-arrived illegal domestic workers searching for a job here and there. My friend said cheaters had rather good talent of performance to trap ppl. The woman still stood w/ worried look and looked around. Hunting? Later my friend off, left me there approaching my stop. "Shall I remind the driver her destination? Guess nobody would understand her speaking." I was in dilemma. To do so, I had to moved up to her and risk of being cheated. Internal twists. Finally I took the courage to go up and tell the driver, while the driver answered back by grumbling, "Take her there by yourself!..." Yes?! The whole-hearted help should be that. But I was not courageous enough to do so due to horrific social reality. In fact, the woman never raised any extra help to us. A psycho-crime to impose such a cheating image on her? Miserable when we need courage to help but not helping by instinct! and the social trust crisis in China. |
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Fear is a state of mind and can be overcome. Always help, always love, always care. It is the only true way. When you know the right path, the fear is gone. TG
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Indeed an high ideal to reach step by step, Top.
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