I've to swallow my depression
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Posted:Sep 30, 2008 2:25 am
Last Updated:Oct 23, 2008 6:50 pm 13956 Views
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I've to swallow my depression.
I've contracted conscious depression.
Whenever my mind's not occupied by work, it would think on something sad and helpless, and it would make me cry.
My eyes are painful.
I fail them or it fails me?
Headache. I dont want to talk, nor speak. And i must look terrible like an insane.
The problem I am aware is :
Measurement; communication, simplifying or complexing...wait or take initial.
Just hope I will be better, but might not, since I've entered this quagmire, struggling inside like a sick.
I still have a party, I must pay to carry it on alone, just to deliver it to the people I must.
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風雨鳥, 風雨未了 A bird in the storm and the storm will never perch
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Posted:Sep 23, 2008 8:48 pm
Last Updated:Apr 27, 2024 10:27 pm 11220 Views
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風雨鳥, 風雨未了
台風過後, 滿目蒼夷, 地面勁枝嫩葉在發出最後的哀鳴; 電子媒體播送著水浸的新聞……一個男人致電電台說, 看見許多受海水倒灌而浸水的店家和人家在搶救財物, 感到心酸.
我走在泥濘的石仔路上, 這是條僻靜的後巷, 旁邊是一個墓園. 風雨仍在飄搖, 斜斜的打下來, 在伞下, 在頑抗著的小樹身上.
驀地, 我瞥見一只小鳥, 該是只麻雀吧, 立在泥水斑駁的路中央, 也許在覓食, 也許在遊戲, 也許只是在暴風雨後出來透透氣.
同時, 這只小鳥飛進了我童年中的鄉村, 在某個豪雨中或後的時刻, 一個頑冥的小女孩, 也正在拖腮凝看著與雨打天井, 雨敲瓦面, 間或, 也有一兩只無畏的鳥兒停伫或飛過…
A bird in the storm and the storm will never perch
The strongest typhoon ever in the past 15 years has just swept the city. Eyeful eyeful is the aftermath debris everywhere. Tree trunks and still freshly green leaves are having their last weeping on the floor. Electronic media are broadcasting news of flooding…a man called the phone-in program and said, “I feel sad seeing the shops and households fighting to rescue their belongings.”
I am walking on the muddy cobble stoned alley, a quiet back alley that is adjacent to a cemetery. Rains and winds keep raving, stroking down on my umbrella and on the struggling mall trees.
Suddenly, a little bird bumps into my eyesight ‒ it should be a sparrow. It’s standing on the middle of the mud-and-water way, perhaps looking for food, or having some fun, or, just refreshing itself after the suffocating storm.
Simultaneously, this bird flies into my childhood village, in such a stormy or post-storm moment, a little stubborn girl, holding her cheek, is also watching the raindrops hitting on the courtyard, on the roof tiles. Occasionally, one or two birds will be stopping by or flying over her.
pic. Qingming
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结实對结石; jie shi vs jie shi = Stone for Stone
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Posted:Sep 18, 2008 9:07 pm
Last Updated:Sep 30, 2008 2:17 am 13032 Views
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"吃中國奶粉, 孩子結石;
吃外國奶粉, 孩子結實. "
- 廣東電視台節目主持人, 2008//09/19.
自百年前, 中國人就在國貨和洋貨間盤絞.
直至今天, 國貨在洋貨前仍黴氣難消.
為什麼?
"Taking Chinese brand milk formula, babies grow kidney stones;
Taking foreign brand milk formula, babes grow like stones. "
- an anchor of Guangdong TV, Sept. 19, 2008.
Since one hundred years ago Chinese people have struggled between homemade products and imported items;
Until today, Chinese products are still struck down by foreign products.
Why?
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Happiness, What You Art? - fm a Morning Music Session
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Posted:Sep 11, 2008 8:47 pm
Last Updated:Sep 20, 2008 12:01 am 12560 Views
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Every two weeks I have a music session in the morning to practise Chinese erhu - an instrument kind of fiddle.
After two-month break my teacher Wang, who is a professional Chinese music conductor, principal erhu musician for the city's sole Chinese music orchestra, and also a lecturer in the music school, looks more energetic and talktive.
He was trained since a in the East Northern city Dalian of China to be an erhuist in the 1950s. During the 1960s, he was with several different troupes on and off, until he landed on Hong Kong in the 1980s, looking for a change. He got a job in a plastic flowers maker factory as a packing supervisor. "I can remember more than 40 Englsih color names..."he said. He spent 3 years there, earning little.
"Fish can only swim in the proper water." He manifested. Later on he was admitted to an amateur music group, then to Hong Kong Chinese Music Orchestra. At last something lured him to the still-a-seedy-town Macau, to join the Macau Chinese Music Orchestra. He applied for retirement two years ago, but the organization asked him to stay longer.
He has music, students and his own life philosophy. So "I have no regret for the past 50 years." Though after retired, his pension is much less than other public servants as the Orchestra is not within the government system.
"I believe in the golden mean. Just enough money to afford a reasonable life is ok. "
"Music or any other forms, as long as they can arouse pleasant feelings, they are good. "
The highlight: when someone asked me what happiness is,
"Happiness is CAN do what you like; happiness is CAN do what you dont like."
With his happiness doctrine echoing, we played a duo for Beautiful Night. This tune, as per his idea, is the inspiration for the Beijing Olympics theme song. It can resonate craving for peace in people's mind.
Though this time the talk occupies half time of the lesson, it's very worthwhile.
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Luv Departs Seks vs No Novelty No Seks? !
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Posted:Sep 1, 2008 12:44 am
Last Updated:Sep 7, 2008 8:08 am 15630 Views
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Let's hear some pillow talks on a dawn or a dusk.
HUUUUUSHSH
Man 1: I separate seks with luv. Luv is luv, seks is seks. I dont mix them up.
Woman 1: I only seks with whom I luv. No luv no seks; no luv no kis.
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Woman 2: If you gear up your desire, we can have seks anywhere anytime.
Man 2: Why women has such imagination? I only like to have seks with stranger. The 1st time is the most enjoyable.
No novelty no seks? No novelty no seks! How can those worn out partners seks??
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What's your say?
p.s. Creative bum mooncakes. Who wants a close look? Contact me
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i-phone girl
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Posted:Aug 28, 2008 3:22 am
Last Updated:Sep 5, 2008 7:30 pm 12481 Views
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Do you know i-phone gilr.
I dont, before my bro. tells me.
Here she is:
A British young man received an i-phone and tuned it on and appeared this worker girl on his screen.
He wondered (with curiosity and joyful excitement), he uploaded it on some net forums.
So this Chinese i-phone girl become a global phenomenon in 6 days. She is actually an inspection worker on the production line who took the pics to test the phone but didnt delete them intentionally or unintentiaonally.
Is it very easy to become a legend nowadays?
What do you think of her and this phenomenon?
Any imagination behind this?
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Toiling plus Nagging in Typhoon Nuri
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Posted:Aug 22, 2008 6:14 am
Last Updated:Sep 1, 2008 12:33 am 12470 Views
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Nuri is a bird's name, now they name this typhoon singal no. 8.
All in a sudden, the city is eempty (perhaps all Southern China), like after an evacuation. I enjoy that - fallen leaves and fallen everything from the nature and unnatural objects.
Best choice is to watch the tide on the sea, feeling the power of creator, if there's one.
Yet I have to do translation work that ought to be delivered today. Whats worse, I wonder work for what. Work for what, when everybody has retreated into their nests watching the Beijing Birdnest events. It's miserable if i am asking myself this.
And I feel abandoned by the prevalent typhoon, in utmost solitude, with a light, music and a lamp.
Do we feel more happy if we are doing exactly what others do? Is it that there's a happy model to follow? But only last night, I was pretty jolly when I sat in the Zhuhai street biting a sweet potato, all alone. I was enjoying the revisit of happy loneliness.
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How is it to be a bi-zexual or tri-zexual?
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Posted:Aug 14, 2008 4:17 am
Last Updated:Sep 3, 2008 7:24 pm 12629 Views
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My friend tell me, I am not a bi-sexual, I am a tri-zexual. Then burst of laughters.
How is it to be a bi-zexual or tri-zexual?
A lot to be explored?
Or to be boiled?
Zex topics arise here while Zex & the City curtains down when all the sexual women retreat.
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The Burden of Chinese - a View of Olympics Opening Ceremony
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Posted:Aug 11, 2008 9:21 pm
Last Updated:Sep 3, 2008 7:25 pm 11990 Views
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I was standing in the famous square of Macau, with a big crowd of ppl of any nationalities, to watch the opening ceremony on the huge screen.
Two things worthnoted: 1. I shedded a tear when the dancers made the ink stroke with body movements. 2. The vast majority of Philippine speculators burst into noisy job when seeing their national team parading in.
Zhang Yimou was too ambitious, too over-burdened with the task to showcase the 5000 years culture/history in a scroll of 50min.
Chinese (producers and audiences) were still indulged in our ancient dream of glory of the midland empire. I was in such an illusion that we were commoners of Great Tang, revelling at a great ceremony to show off our interior power with the visitors fm abroad.
The Burden of Chinese is so long history, so heavy, so ...
Are we proceeding with it? When will we know Simple is More and More is None?
(How do you think of the opening I was standing in the famous square of Macau, with a big crowd of ppl of any nationalities, to watch the opening ceremony on the huge screen.
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Sex & City - NYV
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Posted:Aug 4, 2008 8:31 pm
Last Updated:Aug 18, 2008 3:33 am 13310 Views
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Sex and the City, New York Version of New York values.
I saw this movie on Sunday afternoon w/ two gfs, just bcoz after the noon Chinese tea meal I had nowhere to go and no one available to date in such a hot sun.
Twenty-sth audience members, mostly women and a scarce of men accompanying gfs. My laughters were the loudest in the cinema. I wonder why this movie sequel of three struggling-in-love women plus one sex-avaricious stimulated so many crazy female movie-goers in Europe (UK?).
Well, all the three had a happy ending in marriage, lurking happiness while harmoniously dealing with habbies and nursing babies. It tells that the globalization of ultimate happiness for most women is still Marriage & Family. The director only let Semantha carry on her sex adventure even after 5 years try of cohabiting with a young bf, the over-simple basis: that's her nature! (Is it too simple? Men!)
Above all, this is a vanity show of fashion and love, showy items and self-centered hegemonic love (American values or NY?). The NY version of love is: love of fashion (external beauty and surface); New York indulgence&arrogance (the ladies feel only good in NY, not LA, not tropical Mexico,even the St. Louis girl came to NY for pursue of a LV bag and only she would return hometown for old love.)
To conclude, this's not bad for an awfully hot afternoon. At least we know some trick to lure(though old, in Kunming and Japan, guys can go to a restraurant to try these sensual food): put Japanese susie on your naked body and wait for a handsome to suck...at least some girls will fancy the wedding dress Kerry was wearing; at least we know to hit our guys with the rose bunch on their face; at least, four chit-chat women dressing up, not only to sharp our eyes, but to strengthen our integration of female forces!
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