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Phobias They are quite strange things.. I went to get a MRI.. I had no idea that I was not at all comfortable within that tube... I opened my eyes, and it was far more of a compacted space and it did not feel good. I told the technician, this simply is not going to work. !!!!  I was kind of frustrated that I let this thing overpower my mental awareness, when I knew it was a opening at both ends and it would not crush me nor would I get locked inside of it. But nevertheless it was not comfortable.. They sent me to another facility which has a unit with the sides are more open.. and the things was much wider over all, but when the bed is in place, the top is maybe 6-10 inched from my face. I could still fell my emotions welling up.. but I began to try and distract myself and eventually I turned my head to the side and I could see out in the room and that was more relief, plus the technician had the fan blowing on me, which made it even better. The noise is horrendous, and in a tight space with this volume of noise, it certain takes nothing being overcome by the confines of the space, because the noise itself it intense, but compounding that with any phobia of space confinement is itself a challenge. I don't want to do it again... When I got out, all I could think about was, stay healthy, do what will keep me healthy and keep myself as accident free as possible so I don't have to do this again, and certainly not to be confined by any means in this tube nor a hospital or any other place. Now, I've always known I don't like snakes, and I don't like anything that moves like snakes or such reptiles. Now I also know, that I don't like places that induce claustrophobia. |
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I just don't readily see a scenario that will make me comfortable in this thing. what I do know is that I want to avoid as much as possible having to do it again. I'm sure they have some kind of knock out medicine they can give to assist with these type of test. I'd gladly accept a colon-scope, above being placed in this thing.. at least with the scope, they put me to sleep.  I'm sure there has to be a better way to design this thing. It's for certain, I won't be becoming an Astronaut nor a scuba diver, nor in a compact submarine, and there is no way, that I'd be shot out of a circus cannon. at least not by any method of choice as being a first volunteer.. Even is someone said, could have any woman any time as many times as I want it... there are just some things, I don't think I'm willing to do to get that.  
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