深秋的寂寞
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Posted:Oct 10, 2008 6:01 pm
Last Updated:Oct 10, 2008 6:01 pm 5685 Views
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都说凄凉的深秋，是浪漫的季节。
微寒的清早，梅子穿件薄毛衣都觉得冷。街面上，已没有了落叶的风景，起的更早的清洁工，把它们早早的归了位。那些散发淡淡清香的金色桂花树，只剩绿绿的叶子，零散地挂着。
冷不丁的，会突然觉得自己没有了追求成功的热情，没有安静读文章的心境，忽然才明白，自己真的是寂寞了，属于凉凉的深秋季节的寂寞！
记得有个网上好友的哪篇自我说明上写道“……我有着深深的寂寞，来自心灵深处的寂寞……渴望爱与被爱……”曾想着，那么阳光灿烂的一个人，也有寂寞的时候。那么我这样的小妮子，是不是更应该寂寞呢？我也渴望爱与被爱吗？或许，人人都是渴望的，只差别于，愿不愿被承认罢了。
昨夜里，哪个不知名的频道里，一个学者模样的声音在分析秋愁的产因。说了一大堆叶绿素、叶红素、干燥、气温等等字眼，最后总结说：“这样的深秋，为了没有秋愁，请到户外走走……”我不禁失笑，难不成，寂寞的不只我一个？？
“当花瓣离开花朵，暗香残留……”那么美的一首歌，听得多了，也会生厌。特别发现沙宝亮其实是在装模作样的假唱的时候，更是发自心底的不屑。我归结这种心绪，是烦燥的表现。是那种心无归宿，思绪飘零的烦燥。
甜蜜的日子里，一切都会是宽容的。仿佛伟大的爱超越了一切平凡的世俗。因此又知道了，心中的爱，只剩寂寞。
寂寞有时是可怕的。象只老鼠悉嗦着啮食本就空洞的心。让人硬生生的感觉到那种痛。隐隐的，却是真实的。压抑着的心火，不甘心的蠢蠢欲动。想找人吵架、想哭、想笑。想一个人去旅游，想削发净面入空门。
一直都觉得，缤纷的网络或许可能解除寂寞，这样的季节，网络也无能为力。那种思绪和无人能懂的心境，屏住了呼吸的神经！
微凉的季节，深秋的寂寞！
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窗 外-------Outside the window
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Posted:Sep 10, 2008 9:25 pm
Last Updated:Apr 27, 2024 11:43 am 5429 Views
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在办公桌前坐久了，站起身到窗口处透透空气。窗口是面临大街的，可以看清楚楼下的人来人往。
楼前的一角是一小片空地，空地处在商贸城的东门，在空地上停有五六辆人力三轮车，车夫们坐在地面上闲聊，有客人来了，他们中的一个就站起来拉着客人离去，时不时的也有别的三轮车拉着客人到来，客人下来了，车夫马上加入闲聊的人群。
空地旁边摆有一个冰柜，看冰柜的是一个五十多岁的妇女，她在那冰柜后面快坐一天了，现在看来有些昏昏欲睡。一个小女孩跑过来，手里扬着一个硬币，嘴里喊着：我要雪糕。妇女猛地醒来，赶快掀开冰柜拿起一块雪糕递给小女孩。
紧挨着冰柜的是一个卖甘蔗的，摊主是一个四十岁左右的妇女，她很麻利的操着一把快刀，把一根根甘蔗消得干干净净的，然后截成一尺多长的一节节，井然的放在一块木板上，不断的有人来挑选。妇女脚边躺着一只小京吧，懒洋洋的趴在地上酣睡。
一辆高级轿车开了过来，看来准备往商贸城里开去，轿车要经过空地，轿车司机很恐怖的按着低音喇叭，三轮车们纷纷起身挪动自己的车子，轿车过去了，车夫们又恢复原样坐在地上。
一辆工具车开了过来，车前没挂车牌，车身上喷着“行政执法”的蓝字，车在甘蔗摊前停了下来，从车上下来两个青年男子，厉声说道：不让你在这摆摊，你偏摆，看把街道弄的。罚款200，快拿！妇女没办法，拿出二十元钱央求道：我一个礼拜也买不200块钱，你行行好，我把地扫干净，下次不敢了！其中一个男子接过二十元钱，说道：以后注意点！妇女连声说好，“行政执法”离开了这里。
窗口小，世界大！窗外的一切每天都在重复的进行着，春夏秋冬无一例外！也许，这就是生活！关上窗户，梅子重新坐在电脑前，继续重复着我的生活！
Sitting in the desk for a long time, the station got up to the window Toutou air. Is a window facing the street, you can see the Renlairenwang downstairs.
In front of the iceberg is a piece of open space, commercial space in the East Gate City, in the open area stopped a 56 human tricycles, Che Fu are sitting on the ground to chat, to the guests, one of them to stand up and pull The guests leave, there are other times the guests pulled tricycle arrival of the guests down, Che Fu immediately join chat groups.
Open space next to a freezer place to see the freezer is a 50-year-old woman, her back in the freezer one day soon sit, it seems now that some drowsiness. A little girl running from, Yang Zhao hands of a coin, shouting his mouth: I would like to ice-cream. Mengdi women woke up, quickly opened an ice cream freezer pick up the little girl handed.
Next to the freezer is a sell sugar cane, is a 40-year-old who runs around the women, she was the Caozhao a Kuaidao Mali, a root sugarcane Consumers in the clean and then cut into one foot long A spiralling, the Jingran on a board, continued to pick someone. Women's feet lay a small Beijing bar, the Lanyang Yang趴sound asleep on the floor.
A sedan opened up, the city appears ready to open to commerce, the cars to go through open space, a terrorist car drivers on the button woofers, tricycles to have stood up to move their cars, cars have passed, Che Fu again resume As is sitting on the ground.
A tool from a car, not linked to the front license plate, the car was Penzhao "administrative enforcement" of the blue characters, vehicles parked in the sugar cane Tanqian down, down from the board two young men, said Li Sheng: not you In this Baitan, put your side, to see up the street. A fine of 200, with fast! Women's no way, with 20 yuan money Yangqiu: I do not buy a week 200 money, you Hang Xinghao, I have to clean sweep the next dare not! One man received 20 yuan money, said: After the attention! Women repeatedly said, and "administrative law enforcement," left here.
Small window, the world! Outside the window every day, all carried out in duplicate, autumn and winter spring and summer, without exception! Perhaps this is life! Guanshangchuanghu, plums re-sit in front of the computer, continue to repeat in my life!
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男人，你拿什么反抗------Men, what means are there against you
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Posted:Sep 5, 2008 1:22 am
Last Updated:Sep 10, 2008 9:22 pm 5626 Views
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阴霾灰暗的天空，阴凉的秋，散不开的浓雾眷恋这城的妩媚。
裹着睡衣，懒散的躺在床上。看着散落的地板上短裙、内裤……像在看着自己的欲望。
接到了他的电话，是在数小时之前。他说：我想你！我回答他：你疯了！他在电话的另一头笑，说：梅子，我想你晚上和我一起出去应酬。（郁闷,什么时候说话学会大喘气了）
我说：你知道的，我对你的生意不感兴趣，对你的烂应酬也没兴趣！他说，我知道，就算是帮我个忙吧！他还是笑。无论我说他什么，他都不会生气。这倒让我没了脾气，似乎，只剩下同意的选择了。
我忽然明白了，为什么他一定要带我来。饭局定在酒店包间，算上我和他一共六个人，三女四男。除了他之外，另三个男人，两个是他生意上的伙伴。坐在他们身边的两个美女，一个长的狐狸样，另一个很妖。从他们的神情和亲密程度上可以看出，这两位美女绝对不是男人的秘书。而另外一个男人，据说是他们这次宴请的主角，一个什么部门的头头。我忽然明白了他为什么要带我来，而不是带他的秘书来。
我被安排在那个什么头头的肥头大耳的老男人身边。有这么个人坐在身边，我吃什么都有想吐的感觉，再加上那两个女人还时不时地对这这个男人起腻、犯嗲……但，那老男人的目光始终飘在我这里。后来，竟在桌下用他那肥肥的猪蹄子摸我的大腿！TNND，早知道姑奶奶就不穿短裙，改穿毛裤外套牛仔裤了！但在这样的场合，我还是要有所顾及的。可我又不甘心，于是，梅子开始和这个男人斗酒！
老男人很兴奋，可他低估了本小姐的酒量，何况他之前已经喝了不少了，一张黑中透红的猪腰子脸都闪着酒光！半瓶酒下肚，他的舌头就有些直了！痛快！
本以为这样可以结束了。但男人们似乎并不满足于此，老男人支吾着要去唱歌，还说他买单，说什么难得遇到三个美女！我狠狠瞪了我朋友一眼，趁别人不注意，我踹了他一脚。（其实，他挺冤！男人有时总做些不情愿却又不得不做的事情）执拗不过跟着去，反正本MM已经很就没唱了！
可我没想到，那个狐狸样的女人简直比我还麦霸！从进了K厅就没离开过麦！其实就算我想唱，也唱不了。那个猪头男像打了兴奋剂一样，刚和那个很妖的女人跳完舞，就拉着我跳！
我刚站起来，他就给了我一个熊抱！满是就臭的嘴几乎要贴到我脸上了，可恶的手不是搂着我的腰，而是直接搂着我美丽性感的屁股！更可恶的是，由于太近，他那玩意竟立起来了，还顶着我下面。最最可恶的是，还不断地扭！NND，他也不怕把腰扭断了！我偷眼看了一眼我朋友，他老人家一脸不愉快，但他又不敢得罪这个猪男！看来，还是要我自己解决了！
我故意开始扭动，猪头男竟兴奋得直哼哼。几次想亲我的脸，都被我避开了！就在他感觉越来越良好的时候，我狠狠地踩了他一脚——是用靴子的细跟踩的！猪头男人嗷的叫了一声。我连忙说；对不起，我不怎么会跳，踩到你了！
猪头男人说：没关系！
连笑都那么痛苦还说没关系？！好！我接着踩！反正我已经说了，我不怎么会跳！接连被我踩了五脚后，猪头男人不跳了，而且我再怎么拉他，他也不跳了！那就喝酒。有些晕菜的猪头男人连半瓶都没喝完，就被我放倒了！看着他躺在沙发上像猪一样直哼哼，我心里那叫一个爽！
猪头男人被塞进车里的一刻，他说：梅子，你可太坏了！我白了他一眼：是你们男人自找的！
我告诉他：这个世界，男人的坏，会被聪明的女人洞穿；但，女人的坏，即使男人洞穿了，也会无力反抗！
Haze gloomy skies, the autumn cool, casual does not open the thick fog this city's charming nostalgic.
Wrapped pajamas, lazy lying on the bed. Seeing the scattered on the floor of short skirts, underwear…… like watching their own desires.
He received a phone call in a few hours before. He said: I think you! I answered him: you crazy! He calls the other end laughed and said: plums, I would like you to join me out at night and socialize. (Depressed, when speaking of the Institute of the pant)
I said: You know, I am not interested in your business, you are not interested in Black entertainment! He said, I know that, even helped me to a busy! He laughed. No matter what I said he that he will not be angry. This Daorang I have not the temperament, it seems, only the consent of choice.
I suddenly understand why he must take me to. Dinner for the hotel rooms, he and I counted a total of six people, three women and four men. In addition to his outside, and the other three men, two of his business partner. They sat around the two beautiful women, a long fox-like, another very monster. From their expressions and intimate extent, we can see that beauty is definitely not the two men's secretary. And the other a man, they said the dinner is the protagonist of what the department head. I suddenly understood why he took me to be, rather than take him to the secretary.
I was in the head that what the big fat old men around the ears. So individuals sitting around, I eat what Xiangtu have the feeling, coupled with the two women also from time to time in this tired from the men, who Div…… but that the old man's eyes I always floating in here . Later, even under the table in his use of fertilizer the Zhuti I feel the thigh! TNND, early to know not to wear short skirts Gunai Nai, Maoku jacket to wear jeans! But in this occasion, I still have to be taken into account. But I also can not be reconciled, therefore, plums and the men began Doujiu!
Old men very excited, he underestimated the Miss Jiuliang, let alone before he has to drink a lot, a black Touhong in the sub-Liandushanzhao Zhu Yao-wine! Banping liquor Xiadu, his tongue on some straight! Excitement!
Thought that this could be over. But men do not seem to meet here, the old men to go to prevaricate with singing, and said that he pay, saying that the three encountered a rare beauty! I sternly Deng one of my friends, while others do not pay attention to, I kicked his kick. (In fact, he quite reprisal! Sometimes the men do not prefer it to do things) to follow the Zhiniu However, since the MM has not sing very much!
I can not imagine that that kind of woman is simply a fox than I Mr tyrants! Into the K from the Office of wheat left no! In fact, even if I want to sing, can not sing. That men like a pig as a stimulant, just a monster and that the woman Tiaowan dance, I pulled on the jump!
I just stand up and he gave me a bear hold! Man is on the foul mouth almost paste it into my face, the hands are not heinous Louzhuo my waist, but I direct Louzhao beautiful sexy butt! More abhorrent, because of too close, he has Nawan Yi Li up, I also顶着below.最最abhorrent, also constantly twisted! NND, he is not afraid of Bayaoniuduan! I Touyan I saw a friend, the elderly do not look happy, but he did not dare to offend the male pig! It seems that I still have to solve their own!
A. I started deliberately, the pig was so excited that even straight men Hengheng. I would like to several pro-face, I have been avoiding! He felt more and more in good time, I severely kicked and stamping on him - is fine with stamping on the boots! Ao pig is called the men out. I quickly said, I am sorry, I will jump less, stepped on you!
Pig man said: It does not matter!
Even so painful that laughter is okay » ! Well! I then stamping on! Anyway, I have already said, I will jump less! I was stamping on a series of five feet, pig men do not dance, and how I pull him, he does not jump! Then drink. Some men even Yuncai the pig Banping not finish, it was my Fangdao! Seeing him lying on a sofa like pigs, like Hengheng straight, I was Najiao a cool!
Pig men were into the car the moment, he said: plums, you can be too bad! I had him a white: Zizhao is your man!
I told him: this world, men bad, women would be wise forehead perforated However, the bad woman, even if the men forehead perforated, will be unable to resist!
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做个坏女人---To be a bad woman
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Posted:Aug 29, 2008 8:56 pm
Last Updated:Sep 5, 2008 1:20 am 6053 Views
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梅子决定做个坏女人。
做个坏女人，有什么不好？
坏坏的爱，不会用心爱，因此，心不会再被伤
坏坏的对你，不再付出，因此，不会觉得有什么不公平
坏坏的抢所有自己喜欢的东西，只是因为喜欢
坏坏的对一切事情，只是因为我寂寞
其实，坏坏的女人，也很可爱
她会在自己的朋友面前象个孩子，朋友这里是她最温暖的地方。
坏坏的女人，很好，即使被骂，被不喜欢，都无所谓，
做自己喜欢的很好，我年轻，我可以无所不能
只要开心就够了
花开过，就败了。趁着现在，让它怒放吧。
Plum decided to be a bad woman.
To be a bad woman, what is wrong »
Huaihuai love, not with the beloved, therefore, will not be injured heart
Huaihuai on you, no longer pay, so do not feel that what is not fair
Huaihuai the抢all their favorite things, like just because
Huaihuai on all things, just because I lonely
In fact, Huaihuai woman, very cute
She will be in front of their friends Xianggehaizai, friends here she is the warmest place.
Huaihuai woman, very good, even being scolded, do not like, does not matter,
Do you like good, I am young, I can omnipotent
Happy as long as enough
Flowers too, lost on the. Taking advantage of now, it it in full bloom
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һ----ռǿƪ Yilianyoumeng ---- diary OPENING MESSAGE
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Posted:Aug 27, 2008 1:10 am
Last Updated:Apr 27, 2024 11:43 am 6332 Views
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Some people say that the girls can not guess the thinking is, yes, because girls love to dream. Is not the girls like to dream » Love is not the dream of girls are very naive, very rich imagination? » Perhaps yes, perhaps I was such a person, like a dream, but also naive, but also love fantasy, but also lonely.
In fact, alive in the hearts of people have their own dreams, a dream, will have to expect that there will be a colorful life. A would dream, dream quickly grow up quickly̸, quickly turned into adults, quickly work to make money; up the same dream, the dream of becoming younger, more beautiful and make a lot of money when their own The boss, and so on.
Our dream is always accompanied by growth. Some dreams, in reality As we grow really achieve, some dreams can never become a dream.
Some people say that the city's night, turn on the Wanjiadenghuo, the city staged numerous stories quietly. Each lamp is on behalf of a person's story, when so many stories staged on January 1, who can care about your story » The hero of the story different, the outcome of the story has only three, one is happy, one sad, one is extraordinary.
If I have to choose the outcome of the story, of course I do not sad, I want happiness, but if they are not happy, I also want to ordinary living, so I am sad not to enter the story. Although the story of my life is not beautiful, but must be rich, have a connotation of a recollection. In this way, even if the drop in the ocean, and feel no regrets.
Sometimes, I feel that happiness will come to very sudden, people will be very incredible. But if you did not feel this is a happy, you will miss the well-being of Yijiao. So, very often, I feel that happiness is only a feeling, totally lies in a person's feelings and the sense of things.
Sometimes people feel it is very difficult to express by words and definitions, everyone's different ideas, different feelings, the feelings of the delicate taste of the pros and cons of the decision is a person's life experience. I think I am a woman, what is this Wanjiadenghuo in which lamp? » This story has Dengxia how many? »
Seeing people close to the changes, watching the old friends gone, exclaimed, in the story, is really too many too many Shishifeifei, Meiyu Chou also accompanied the story.
Chiung Yao like the "Yilianyoumeng" in the song, "I have Yilianyoumeng, I do not know and who were If Xiangzhi and reunions, a total of Yilianyoumeng this. "Such a beautiful, if in life The event, scheduled to make good value.
Sometimes, choosing a new life is the need great courage, because a new life, you are faced by all so familiar, like a shop in the White before you so that you feel at a loss. But if you have the courage to depict this white sheets, the beautiful future will belong to you.
Understand that such a truth may be very simple, but really do, but not all are very decisive. So, sometimes, beauty can only dream is a dream only.
Xie Buchu to have been the last word, because life is too boring, or become more complex, so Wucuo to find clues »
Have always thought he was a heart Duochoushangan woman, but suddenly feel very cold and very lonely, or even very often, the numbness. The lives of low-key attitude, but also negative, and sometimes even feel that they are a superfluous person, but Gouqietousheng, because I am a Dan Xiaogui, I can not and life joked.
But any event, there will be surprises in life, there will be sunshine, there will be a warm, therefore, the story of my life has been a continuation, dull, but occasionally a curve.
In fact, life appears more often is not perfect, I think, the courage to face and to adhere to is we need most, which is often overlooked by us, or even forgotten.
"I have Yilianyoumeng, I do not know who can and a total of how many of them in secret, no one Nengdong to appeal. "
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